So I am sitting here washing clothes. Its bee a great day though!!! God has opened a lot if doors for me to share with several girls tonight. I have really enjoyed meeting all of them! God is so good.
I have also been thinking about loneliness. Its an interesting thing I have decided. Its like I can be around soooo many people all day long but when I have to sit here by myself washing clothes I remember how alone I really am. Its not like a depressing thing at all.... its just me thinking about the reason we are made for. And I believe that reason is for relationships.
Relationships are exactly what God wants form us. Its what we as people yearn for. I believe that a basic necessity for life is company. We need each other. I guess I really never thought too much about it, but it is completely true. We need other people.
I was just thinking about what I really would desire in a relationship, and here is what I came up with.
1) I want some one to be around who equally wants to be around me. I want that person to have a desire to be around me and just sit and talk to me.
2) I believe what my heart really wants is that person for the rest of my life. Yea like a husband. I really want that... I mean not like immediately but yea I truly believe that what my heart wants most now is to be satisfied forever.
3) I want this person to know me
I feel like that has been the hardest part of this all...."It's not about you" is what is said to us all the time. That is so true, so no matter how many people you are around though its not the same satisfaction of being around one person who knows you and you know them.
I believe also that as a girl we seek that out. Not having time to talk to anyone else even my parents has made that really hard. I think that I desire it so bad right now because I am not getting any attention from anyone and all I am doing is pouring myself out!
Again I am not desperately lonely. Its just a new kind of lonely.
Thanks for listening!
Sarah
